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There is never an instant's truce between virtue and vice. Goodness is the only investment that never fails.

I have been in closer touch recently w/ some of my friends and family from home, and it is doing 2 things to me. first, I feel better about being in touch and I feel like I am having the chance to be a part of their lives much the same I was before I left, this makes me happy. secondly, I feel more distant than ever, I am not there and I can't be as effective and motivational from a little island in the middle of the caribbean! lastly, I am missing out on the lives of not 1, not 2 but 5 new babies I haven't had the chance to meet yet! that really tears me up sometimes, my best friends in the world, my 1st cousin, and 2 other close friends all decided they were going to have kids after I left. you should see my refrigerator, there are tons of pictures of these children, who I look at 10 times a day at least. each time I wonder what new things they've accomplished, how they look and are growing. the reactions of their proud parents each time they do something new! I am really proud of the work I am doing here in the Caribbean, I know I am valued and I bring a lot to the table! however, I often find myself weighing the fact of who needs me more, where are my priorities? I currently feel like I am doing the right thing, but that is this instant, who knows how I will feel five minutes from now!